Change is good, right?

It has been quite a year!  I thought that we would be living in Northwest Arkansas forever or until we won a lottery and moved to Florida into a condo on the beach.  Things didn't quite work out the way that I had planned.  Just another reminder that 'Thine will, not mine, be done'.  We did move south but not THAT far south and instead of living near the ocean, we live near the Arkansas River.  I don't know if it is just that I am a lot older this time we moved or what but I had a harder time adjusting this time.  I was definitely torn in my feelings.  Part of me missed Northwest Arkansas.  I loved my house, my yard, my friends, my family who lived only a couple of miles away.  I felt comfortable living in Fayetteville.  If I needed to go anywhere....I just jumped into my jeep and went without thinking a thing about it.  I loved my church, my Bible Study group.  We have lived in Maumelle before and I loved it then and I know that I will love it again.  I love being only a mile from my oldest son and his family....especially my granddaughter.  I love being able to see them anytime that I want and especially being able to spend holidays with them.  I love living closer to my brother and sister-in-law.  I am just having a hard time adjusting to the differences in my life.  The yard is a lot bigger and not as level so it is harder to take care of.  We are renting for two years so it isn't even my yard so I don't want to spend a lot of time or money landscaping. There are tons of places to go here but they involve interstate driving for the most part and that scares me to death!  The few times that I have driven on the interstate I say a prayer as I'm merging onto the interstate and close my eyes!  I know that probably isn't the best way to do that but so far it has worked for me.  Needless to say, I have been avoiding the interstate as much as possible.  Lately, I've been thinking a lot about this new adventure we are on and I know that I've been looking at it all wrong!  THIS is where God wants me to be.  And instead of kicking and screaming and dreaming about what could have been....I need to be looking at the positives of this move and be grateful for the opportunities that are HERE.  I've been doing this all wrong.  For the first time in YEARS....I've been able to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas with all three of my sons and their families, with my brother and sister-in-law and my parents.  We have made so many new memories and laughed till we cried.  Change is good if we just have the right attitude about it.  I didn't at first.....but the last few weeks.....I've felt like I'm home....home is where your heart is and I think I finally got my heart where it needed to be....HERE in the present and not in the past.